The Sound of Purple Silence

Mood : Happy, expectations.

It's been a quiet week at the Purple Rose. Although Kaya, Kezzy and I do lots of hours, when we are all busy in Real life, the Rose becomes deserted. Despite been a wonderful atmosphere, Its us that give the Purple Rose panache. What we really need is involvement from more people. This is quite a difficult issue, as people have different ideas as to what involvement actually is. Many see involvement as work, a paid job. SL has a very capitalistic society. We see it as building a spirit of community something wonderful to get involved in. Getting the right people with a sense of passion rather than just economic aspirations is difficult. I think its going to take a lot of time to find people me thinks.

We have recently been introduced to two new friends Scia and Voice. Both have passion and I hope they enjoy and develop their involvement in the Purple Rose.

I'm off on Holiday from real life drudgery for 2 whole weeks now YEAH!!!!! Ill be in Venice next week with no contact to email or SL *OMG*, how hard is that !!!! Ill be taking lots of snaps for the purpose's of collecting building textures. *OMG* How sad is that !!!

Real life Photos - Shock and awe.

Last time, my best SL friend Kezzy, showed me some pictures she had taken at a real-life SL social meet up. Every time I see pictures of the real people behind the character, I have this completely illogical awe and shock response. Another one of these things that I seem to have no understanding about. Why is it so strange to me ? My RL job is all about meeting people and communicating, but to suddenly see the embodiment of people that I chat with in SL just freaks me out !!!

I think I feed on this anonymity thing a bit. Maybe, just maybe, SL gives me something that i just seem to not be able to get in RL, therefore when reality creeps in my whole dream feels threatened.

In a interesting discussion with Kezzy, she told me that 'what you see is what you get'. I wish I could be like that. My life is full of contradictions, insecurities, broken promises and secrets. If I had a saying it would have to be 'What you see is what you get, on that day, at that time, no guarantees going forward' :-)

Have you heard that song , I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother, I'm a sinner and a saint' . Yep that's me. Does that make me bad ?

Im Confused.

For six years now I lived in a verity of 'online worlds' ( I prefer the term Metaverse), and I still dont really understand why im there. There are so many different elements to the reasons why I feel the need to exsist in the Metaversa. Most of them make no sence, and some of them are down right unhealthly. This blog is my attempt to unravel my thoughts and feeling so i can finally decide what im doing.



These six years has been an amazing Journey. I think there are two main featues of virtual world content. Firstly there are the game elements that have been designed and put in by the creators. Secondly there is the real game - the societies and social mechanisms that are created by the players, and this I think is the were the real attraction lies. I have soared through the skys, taking part in great space battles, but after a short while that just becomes boring. Interacting with my friends, learning from them and sharing with them, both my virtual experiance and RL encounters is where the real sweet spot lies.



Through all this, I have fiercy preserved my RL anonimity. I think this is some what unsual as may people I have know have gone on to build good strong, interactive real time freindships. However i've always maintaind the seperation between one world and the next, this is becoming more difficult as new 'voice chat' mechanism are creeping into games, and I have noticed there is a growing expectations that these should be used. I must admit to feeling a little threatened by this.